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I have allowed fear to rule my life for far too long.

Fear of failing… Fear of disappointing others… Fear of not having enough or not being able to provide for my family… Fear of not being responsible enough.

Fear is something that I’ve been sitting in recently and it’s been costing me dearly. It’s affected my relationship with my wife, with my children, with my friends, and with myself. It’s dampened the life that I should be living. It’s robbing me of the precious few days I’ve been granted on this earth.

I appreciate fear in that it has kept me safe. But the fear is trying to keep me safe from EVERY potential experience of pain. I’ve decided that I’d rather just go through whatever it is that may happen instead of worrying about what may be.

I’ve decided that I will have to deal with disappointment, frustration, criticism, critique, and even pain…. Maybe.

Or…

I might end up having a good day, and none of the bad things that I’ve been expecting to happen will ever happen. The chances of a positive outcome are just as likely as the catastrophes I’m trying to guard against.

When crap happens, I’ll deal with it THEN. Until then, I choose to have a good day.